Chocolate & peanut butter squares (GF, vegan)
1 year ago, when life was still as it was, I held a sweet, warm bundle in my arms. I could not believe someone can be so happy.
I heard many mothers, all mothers in fact, tell how happy they were the first few days or weeks. I didn't have any of that with Alon, I was depressed beyond understanding and felt like my life was over. PPD can kill you.
And then all of a sudden with Ben I knew exactly what they meant. What a shame I didn't get help with Alon, I think I would have enjoyed him more and could have been a better mother to him his first year.
A lot has happened the past year, as you all heard me repeatedly tell you, but one thing is clear - if during Alon's first year I felt my life was over, with Ben it feels my life just begins.
What I wish for him is to know.
I want him to know how amazing he is, I want him to know he is the best just the way he is, I want him to know to never change for no-one other than himself, to know that he is loved, that there is always his family behind him no matter what.
I want him to know good people have an easier life even though one needs to work harder to be a better person, to know that difficulty is a reminder to how well he can handle things and to know that people are different and that's a great thing.
I want him to know not to be too hard on himself, that will only bring him down, to know that he is worthy, he is smart, he is beautiful.
I wish him to know all that. Not to believe, not to learn, not to try - just to know all this as true.
If he knows all that, he'll have so much time and energy to be the great person he is meant to be.
Happy Birthday, baby bubble.
2/3 cup agave syrup
1/3 cup coconut oil
160g dark chocolate (I buy "Vivani" chocolate in the health food shop, it's sweetened with coconut sugar)
vanilla pod, deseeded
2 cups oats, rolled or crushed, both will work (use gluten free if needed)
1 cup desiccated coconut
Stir in the broken chocolate until melted and then remove from the heat.
Stir in the vanilla, oats and coconut.
Spread the mixture in a 27x17 square form.
Chill in the fridge to set.
Cut into small squares.
Keep in the fridge.