17 weeks today, but feels already like forever. This is nothing like my first pregnancy, exactly the opposite.
My first pregnancy was all fun! Really, it was fun, I enjoyed so much every bit of it. With this one, however, I can't wait for it to be March... The nausea, the tiredness, lack of energy, problem sleeping, it just doesn't finish. First time around I didn't have any of it, now I have it for what seems to be the rest of the pregnancy.
No two kids are alike, and no two pregnancies are alike.
But to be honest, and I am aware this is a part of my pity party, the hardest thing of all is that people don't know HOW sick you feel.
Everyone expect that because their life is just the same that mine will be as well, while all I want to do is stay in bed all day and be sick. Like a normal person, you know?
So people out there who are not pregnant and not suffering, just that you know that this is like HAVING A BEGINNING OF A FLU, the only difference is that it doesn't go away after a few days.
Pregnancy is a great thing, it's all about joy, I understand that it's hard for people to comprehend that it's sometimes or not for all women a fun thing.
I was one of those people who thought like that, I thought morning sickness (or all day sickness to be precise) is a part of the fun. Well, not. God has taught me an important lesson.
And it's not just the physical difficulties, it's the crappy emotions that come with it, like my body is betraying me and guilt that I can't do as much anymore. Everything I DO do is a battle.
But life has to go on, the laundry has to be washed and the shopping done and kindergarten pick up. It's like I have to deny to myself and everyone else that I am weak as a feather.
I just don't understand why when men are sick they stay in bed for days and days, sleeping and moaning for their country and women just have to go on with stuff. It's not fair.
Oh dear, I really feel sorry for myself right now.
2tsp baking powder
100g butter, melted
150g agave syrup
150g canned sweetcorn, after draining
Mix the flour, baking powder, salt and polenta in a big bowl.
Add the butter, eggs, milk and agave and mix well.
Add the sweetcorn and mix.
Spoon the batter into a muffin tray and bake for 25 minutes.
Let the muffins cool in the tray for 5-7 minutes, then take them out onto a cooling rack.