What's different? Nothing.
I was promised a wave of depression, feeling old and sitting around counting my grey hair.
I feel good, I don't feel older than I felt yesterday and I have so much grey hair that I don't even attempt such a task.
I would only wish myself not to be so hard on myself, I think that will make life much easier for me and for the people around me. Everyone make mistakes, me included, and no mistake that I do is that big and wouldn't deserve my forgiveness.
And the things I do do are good enough. I am good enough.
I just want to remember this every day, not just when I feel good about myself. And not just on my birthday.
Happy Birthday to me.
150g butter, melted
30g tapioca flour
40g potato flour
2tsp guar gum
vanilla pod, deseeded
220ml agave syrup
50g walnuts, chopped
For the frosting:
25g agave syrup
1tbsp cocoa powder
Preheat the oven to 180C.
Melt the butter and set aside.
Mix all the dry ingredients with a whisk to "air" them all and make sure there are no lumps.
Add the agave syrup, the eggs, the soaked rice flour, the melted butter and stir well.
Add the walnuts and stir them in.
Grease a brownie tray (I used a square baking tray 27x18cm), pour the batter to it and using a spatula straighten the top.
Bake for exactly 25 minutes and remove from the oven.
Let the brownies cool a bit before making the frosting.
To make the frosting put all the ingredients in a small sauce pan. Heat and stir till the butter is all melted. Pour over the brownies and spread the frosting using a cooking brush.
Leave to cool completely, then cut the brownies to squares.
I found that they tasted the best the first day, the next day they were a bit too dry for me, but others still ate them, beats me.