"Bounty" bars (GF, vegan)
This is not something I talk about much in real life and there are very few people around me who know about it. But I feel now is a good time for me to talk about it, because I believe I made the best decision for myself and my family and I am still so happy about doing it that there is no reason for me to hide this anymore.
A few years ago my father found out that there is a defective gene in his family, a lovely thing called BRCA1. He was advised to do a genetic test himself and after coming back positive (and awfully negative...) my sister and I were advised to do the same.
I still don't know why he did the test himself and ever since I heard about it I am changing my mind all the time if he did the right thing or if he should have just forget about it and let us all live our lives as they were before.
I guess it depends in which mood you catch me.
Anyway, my genetic test was positive as well and I remember reading about it so much before getting the results that going to the appointment I knew there is only one way for me to go forward.
You gotta understand that people who test positive to this gene have 80% chances of having breast cancer and 50% of having ovarian cancer. I was 24 when I found out I have it.
I had two choices: a series of tests every 6 months or getting rid of my breasts.
Tests are ok for many people, but since I wasn't allowed to do the operation straight away, I found out that the waiting and the not knowing is more than I can handle. It just proved me again that wanting the operation is the right thing for me.
Having a baby and moving countries twice has postponed everything, meanwhile both my aunt and my mother has fought this awful disease and every day I grew more and more convinced that the time is coming and no doctor would convince me to "think about it just a bit more, it's such a big step".
My recovery took 6 months. Yes, 6 months till my life was pretty normal again, but I don't look back for a second.
My mind is actually free to worry about other things now!
I get to watch my family being a family every day without worrying that tomorrow I will feel a lump and it will be the end of it. I am not exaggerating here. People with this gene suffer from a more aggressive cancer and even though they are being tested every 6 months the tests can be too late.
I am not saying there is only one right way to deal with it, just saying that the operation was the right way for me. Of course I would not be able to do it all, especially the recovery part, if I didn't have the husband I have and the mother I have, who flew in a two days notice when I was stuck in a German hospital (hardly able to say a word in German) and found out I might not be out in a couple of days like initially planned.
And what does it have to do with a recipe blog?
Just that life is good and hospital food does indeed, as everyone say, sucks.
200g desiccated coconut
100g coconut oil, in liquid state
50g agave syrup
1tbsp cocoa powder
For the coating:
80g dark chocolate (I used again the 92% "Vivani" chocolate which is sugar free)
25g agave syrup
Flatten the white half of the mixture in a small baking tray (I used a square baking ring 18x18 with a baking paper on the bottom*) and squeeze it down. It's better to use this size of a baking tray or smaller, otherwise the bars are too thin and they are going to break easily.
Spread the brown mixture equally on the white one and squeeze again.
Keep in the freezer till the mixture is set and hard.
When frozen through cut into small squares using a sharp knife. You can warm the knife under running hot water, dry it quickly and then cut. Be confident when you cut the bars or it will all fall apart :).
To make the coating, melt the dark chocolate together with the agave syrup on Bain-Marie.
Prepare a baking paper to put the bars on. Dip each bar in the chocolate, shake it a bit to get rid of excess chocolate and put on the baking paper to set.
I didn't have enough chocolate to coat all the bars so I left some of them like that and just dripped the rest of the chocolate on top of them.
Keep in the fridge.